"One thing You've told me, is You are good and You love me..." - Jon Foreman, 'Your Love is Strong'
Two and a half weeks into a fresh school year and my Abba Father has blown me away. I knew it would be a struggle to live out my faith on campus in the ways Jesus called me to this summer, but struggle doesn't even begin to cover it. Between family health issues, 5 hebrew tests, and disaffiliation from my strongest support system I've literally had to lean on Jesus every second. It's felt a little like I'm that statue Atlas holding the world on my back and it's slowly turning to a rock-solid stone. And I don't lift weights...so that's just not working for me.
After a day of almost complete breakdown I had quite a delightful epiphany. I don't have to hold that stone world up. Jesus does it for me.
All semester I haven't been able to talk to a single sorority girl. As part of my job in the rush process (it's complicated, I'll spare you the details, but let the record show I can't WAIT for Monday at 5:30 when I get my girls back again) I can't speak to members of the Samford sorority community in public. So amidst a stressful and emotional couple weeks I haven't had my support system to fall on and let me tell you right now, I didn't even realize how much I depend on my friends.
But Jesus just took that need right away from me. It's funny how quickly I forget the things I learn from my Savior. My summer was centered on placing my complete faith in Christ and all of a sudden I get back to school and I lose my mind. But tonight I'm remembering that when my burden feels too heavy to bear I have the ultimate friend to turn to, no matter which girls I can claim as confidants at the moment.
I don't know what else this school year will bring. The way it's looking so far God's really giving me some chances to use everything I learned in Destin, FL about my faith and my relationship with Him. But my soundtrack for this exhaustive and emotional week is (along with Ben Rector's new CD, listen and let your ears be blessed) Your Love is Strong by Jon Foreman. With all the uncertainties swirling around me I can rest in the steady knowledge that my Abba is good, He loves me with a strong love and He's always there to hold me.
No magnitude of homework, loneliness, stress or cancer can shrink that infinite truth.
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